I am nursing a self-made broken heart that never had a chance of healing.
Modern problems call for innovative solutions and childhood trauma is no different than creating opportunities off of pain points.
We put down the husky last weekend and now the neurotic yorkie, who's 15, is looking at me funny, almost as if to ask "am I next?" Summer can be a time for joy and trips to the beach. It can also be a time of awakenings and grief.
The duality of life has us celebrating both life and death as if they were one in the same, which they kinda are but not without resisting the uncomfortable feelings of sadness, loss, and rejection.
My aha in therapy coincides with a full moon in Aquarius, my ascendant, and I'm looking at how my presence is coming full circle. My brand + business continues to evolve, even during these personal moments of acknowledging the ways we empower wounds by allowing them to amplify into adulthood bullshit.
It's never one thing though.
The emotional baggage we cherish like insecure hoarders finds a way to reflect in how we show up as entrepreneurs.
We choose to embrace scarcity.
We choose to align with gossip.
We choose to uphold white supremacy.
We choose to participate in self-exploitation.
And yet, with the same breathe, it's hella convenient to use choice as the marker for growth, either as forward momentum or backward regression.
Choice is subjective when we're conditioned to believe that we don't have the luxury of options and this applies in all matters of life, business, and even love.
This week, use the lunar transit to acknowledge your full circle moments. Don't assume that your personal life doesn't impact your professional journey, or vice versa. They are all interconnected.
Shattering your own heart because you haven't healed daddy wounds will present itself within your brand and business. The mask looks different but the trauma response is still the same.
Maybe you're chasing after clients who don't want you.
Maybe you're afraid to be visible because you were never seen.
Maybe you don't charge your worth because you grew up with a lack of resources.
Mercury is still stationed retrograde so keep that in mind when blasts from the past pop into your life. We can overthink the past to the point of detriment so navigate your shadow healing process with ease and keep your focus on where you want to go.
In this case, it's not the journey...it's the destination.